there she goes...

love lost again...

i cant accept why someone wud stab ur back so suddenly.
its like u lover deciding he doesnt love u anymore.
after everything youve gone thru, it ends.
after the tears, laughter,and secrets...
it hurts like daggers plunged deep into ur heart.
really really does.
unappreciated and forgotten as if i did not have any impact in her life.
really feel drained beyond help.
shutting down is a choice being contemplated.
but help came like a gorgeous rainbow after the storm.
my saviors these...

kopitiam cofee in the morning...

coffee coffee coffee!
everyone just looks at me with one weird look
what? i need my coffee to function...
hmmmm...
just saw sunny walk by...
wonder wheres his little brother.....

well...
agenda today..
stop falling asleep at work...
my pessimistic views of life has to be watered down
or pretended to have faded away...
my work is suffering...

The beginning at the end...

sighs are all i have all day....
it acompanies me no end...
he belongs too her my mind retorts...
but my heart says otherwise.
he can be mine if i want
but many hearts i'll break
many hearts i care too death for

help me i say
but nobody listens to my heart anymore
help me i scream!
but nobody notices how far i've fallen
the fall is far...
void, dark, empty and never ends...
to fall with no net to save my sorrowed heart
with no savior to save me no more
no one to catch me as i fall to the bottomless pit

i have died, and i have awaken
a walking empty vessel with no idea where to go
so i follow noone
i listen to noone
i am on my own

lost again among the masses
lost again wandering the darkness
lost forever, i dont know
but lost for now is for sure...