am deaf to myself...

i cant hear myself think...
to many people giving their own take on what i should be.
what i should do.
what i should think.
what i should feel.

what about me?
what happens to me?
am i not allowed to decide on my own anymore...
when did i allow that.

i need to block everything out and keep on my track.
but i dont remember what track i chose anymore.
eveybodys ideas have seeped in to me.
sigh...