language barrier

i work in a place, where they would rather speak they own language.

even in front of me.

is this subtle racism?

i believe so

A mask is a tool to hide emotion...

2010 : 2010

broken

have my heart in the shadow
so afraid to open up to anyone
people can see my faded halo
who can make it burn again like the sun

broken

have my heart in the shadow
so afraid to open up to anyone
people can see my faded halo
who can make it burn again like the sun

floodgates there nomore

i did close it all.

i did keep well.

but why is it open now?

i boxed up my feelings.

i pushed people away.

i didn't allow me to keep anyone to myself...

i shut the door.

i locked it up.

i threw the key.

but how is it that its now ajar?

the floodgates are open,

and nothing can hold it back.

the flood has come again,

bringing with it the dread,

how did i let such a little thing break me down,

how is it that it was allowed to creep up to me slowly,

how did i let this happen to myself...

i had allowed myself a little faith.

i had told myself to trust.

i must have forgotten for awhile...

it must have left me that instant...

Maybe i was just looking for something to hold on too

To believe there could be someone to catch my fall

To believe someone would care to catch me

i forgot... i must have forgotten...

*haih

the closer i get to you,

the more clouded my logic.

the more i get to know u,

i forget the promises i made to myself.

the further u pull away from me,

i find myself finding ways to make u come back.

the closer i get to you,

you have inadvertently been mending me.

one smile at a time,

u mend my broken heart.

the more i get to know u,

my ice cold heart seems to be melting

i feel a warmth again, where there was no more before.

the closer i get to you,

the urge to scream at the world has lessen

i feel more at peace

i dont feel like i am done

i no longer feel lost

the more i get to know u

i find myself smiling suddenly

i find myself humming beautiful tunes again

i find myself happy again...

when it rains in your heart

when it rains in your heart

no one can see

when your heart remembers days it shouldn't

nobody will know

when you think you are mended

little things remind you, you are not

When u think time heals broken your broken heart

it seems like time never comes

like a shooting star

like a shooting star, beautiful but landing on ground

to have a pretty looking sight, but creating a crater

in the sky it is beautiful

when landed, a shooting star is only a rock

that has given up staying in the sky

and has decided to not shine anymore....

.....

is afraid of falling into pieces....

will u?

will you reach your goal in life?

before time takes it away...

will you finally find your path?

that has been set for you always...

will you smile on when your end comes?

knowing your loved ones are safe....

or will you crumble and falter?

and scream always at faith...

which way will u choose?
one that leads to your victory, or one that u deem safe?

do you need someone to tell you, that where you are is not the way...

...

listening to, too young...
nat king cole

by poet named park

How long has it been since you looked up at the sky, and thought what a beautiful place.

And did you feel blessed and thankful that you had been born into the world under such a divine grace.

Did you stop and think of the world we don't know, so many miles away.

Where children are hungry and mothers are dying, because of some political array.

And if you could, would you reach out and help them, hold them, and heal them, and promises them a better tomorrow.

Or would you turn your back, and let them endure alone, all the heartache and all the sorrow?

mine for u...

i try these days to make everyone i know to see light in dark places... to shine even though their eyes are dark from anguish, pain, broken determination, or plain broken... i tell them there are two sides to one story. i tell them there is a solution for all problems. if there is none, then the problem is actually a fact. one you need to face. one you need to deal with. bad or good the circumstances of it. i tell them there is good in the world. i tell them every good deed receives a another in return. whether you realize it or not. i tell them karma exsist. i try to teach them to understand. i teach them to listen. i tell them to see. i tell them to feel. and i reap benefit from all this. not in terms many chase. i found new friends. i found good friends. i found their capacity long hidden by seeing dark in every corner. I've found many. and learned plenty. i pray i will always. i pray you will realize. life is beautiful. take in everything. smell the air you breath. touch the flowers the land gave birth too. be thankful the day you were bestowed. pray for another just like it... and LIVE

he who leaves footprints

They told me this would happen. And i would feel just as i do now...
But i refused to listen :)
They said he'd break my heart. And he had NO good intentions...
But i still awarded him the chance
People change i said, they learn as time goes by...
That i believe. And still do.
Unfortunately he is not yet saved.
Still breaking hearts.
Still doing just as he did.
passing thru everyone leaving footprints in their heart.
And they are forever scarred.
Never the same again.
Just the way i am...

....

change...

“Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending.”

Where's my rainbow....

On every occasion you never speak the words that need to be spoken.
Nor you say what needs to be said.
You dont even imply what you feel you they need to know.
You just sit.

You'll never find the courage to ever.
No matter how long you have kept this feeling, you'll never be able to give in.
To accept if ever, this person will reject your words of adoration is not in your skill.

So you sit.
Never saying.
Just letting it slip by you.
Just as the years have.
Knowing, there will be nothing for you sitting at the end of the rainbow.
Just the question.
What could have happened....